Few things immediately touch my life and change the way I
think or feel emotionally right off the bat.
It seems that it takes time to take hold in my heart and soul, but the
other day in reading Psalm 77 I found myself changed. Perhaps it hit me directly because it was
things that I already knew, but said in a different way that led to a deeper
understanding of where I am going and what I am trying to do. And it seems all I am trying to do is find
God and in Him maintain sobriety.
V. 1 I cried out to God for
help;
I cried out to God to hear me.
To truly cry out to God is something that starts from your
very core. It is not something that
comes about from a circumstance in the outside world, but a change that starts
within you. It is in the depths of pain
and despair for God to help, but in order to help it must start for God to hear
us. Your soul is at the point of pain that nothing, and I mean nothing, within
this world will give this pain any ease.
Your body is all in knots and just don’t know what to do. All you can hope for is for God to hear something
and do something for you.
v. 4
You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.
Long days and sleepless nights
are a result of pain and anguish. Those
that are at peace with themselves and God they find it easy to relax and
sleep. Those that have lost all peace,
or even hope of peace, are in constant search of peace for that is what the
heart is truly longing for. In the late
night hours your mind knows that something is not right, but still not sure
what it is or what to do about it. Yet
at some point there is a stirring within you that remembers something of a god,
but still no peace comes from that.
There is still something greatly missing and deep within, with all
sincerity start to question:
v. 7 “Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
This is a deep missing of God in
your life. There was a point that He
seemed to be there is some form or fashion, but now there is nothing. Questioning and doubting why He is gone will
also add to the sleepless nights. Not
only is He gone, but as lying there you start to wonder if He will ever come
back. The thoughts of wondering why the
blessings, love, and compassion have disappeared when we have been told that
these are the character traits that make him God, but now we are wondering if that is
true. These add to the doubts and stress
of sleepless nights. Brings the thoughts
to this:
v. 12
I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.
Being lost as to who this God
is, I can either wonder who this God is or I can meditate upon Him and figure
him out. Remembering the things that we
were taught in our youths and the things we have read of His greatness we find
him to be powerful and great and leads us to find that:
v. 15 With your mighty arm you redeemed your
peoples
The descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
To think that God redeems His
people is a great thought. We have seen
the power and miracles that He is able to do, and in those things we have found
Him to be holy, but yet to come close to Him and be with Him still seems to be
a loss. With all the great and mighty
things God can do, it still leads to fear because we do not truly know how to
get there. With the power being visible
and if we do not have direction in how to get to God it would be very easy to
live in fear of His power and not do anything, but there is hope:
v. 20 You led your people like a flock
by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
We all need that spiritual
advisor to get to God and to find what it is that He requires of us.
As an addict these are perhaps the first few things I did to find help in leaving that life behind. I had so many doubts and uncertainties about myself and God and how everything fit together. Thanks to a sponsor and other spiritual leaders I have been able to find some better ways to live. So whether you are the addict or looking to help an addict, please consider these thoughts to find the true peace and comfort that is needed.
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